‘I prefer recluse, it has fewer religious connotations.’ I mutter it rather than say it.
I look at the box sets strewn about the floor. I have been here for days in silent contemplation, watching them one after the other with a kind of religious zeal.
‘Hermit,’ she says again. ‘Robed in track pants and a hoodie, on a diet of crisps and beer. It begs the question, did you find that which you seek?’
‘All life is here,’ I whisper as I look at the variety of crisps flavours I have devoured in the past week.
He is gone. Taken. I cannot cope.
‘You seek enlightenment through the electronic gods, the gods of calories and fermentation. But there is only darkness here.’
She is right. The curtains remain resolutely closed.
She walks over to the window, flings open the curtains. Light floods in. I shield my eyes.
‘Enlightenment.’ she says.
I fall sobbing to the floor.